1 month ago
instagram killed the artist.
long sEriOuS post ahead yes mercury in retrograde has got me in my feelings lmao ignore any spelling mistakes it's who i am as a person.
so i started this journey around two years ago, i'd already attempted to start a makeup account twice before and it didn't pan out, Then i lost my job and quit college because im a lazy bastard, i had no friends and a shit tonne of free time and my infatuation for makeup grew ten fold, i started posting makeup looks, brainstorming ideas and eventually it picked up. I grew to absolutely adore content creation, planning looks and ideas i was fucking proud of and executing them , editing them and posting for ME, then as i grew -it was for YOU. But the more my little space grew the more i started to post for instagram, that's right i'm a like whore now. and the more instagram pushes me and down. i stay up all night trying to come up content that will go viral, what will get the most likes? I say to myself at 4am scrolling through pinterest. No that's not good enough it has to be better than theirs, bigger, more creative. I want to go viral, what's trending now? i need to get famous. Fuck that BULLSHIT. I don't care anymore, I want to do this because i love art and i love makeup not for likes. I want to be proud of what I do regardless of it it gets 5 likes or 500,000 likes. I love you guys & most of you won't read this or understand this unless you're a content creator yourself but thank you for giving me this space. I'm taking it back.