7 hours ago
Sunsets and pregnancy bumps ❤️ •
God truly does work in mysterious ways.
As some of you may know I lost Rosalie + Ariana.
Long story short I went into preterm labor, my water broke, and the girls were too little to survive. Then earlier this year I was so happy because I was pregnant again, but then ended up having a miscarriage. (I know right I can’t catch a break)
I’m sure you can imagine how much of a wreck I was emotionally. I fell into a deep depression that I’m just now coming out of. •
But anyway the reason I say God works in mysterious ways is because this year my most popular sessions have been maternity sessions. Literally 85% of my year to date session have been maternity.
At first it felt like a sick joke almost like god was laughing at me. (Obviously I thought that cause I was so hurt).
It was ridiculous the amount of maternity requests I got. It got to I had to turn some people away because I just couldn’t handle it emotionally.
So would take a maternity session here, and there depending on how I felt. I had to give myself a pep talk before each session.
But soon enough with each maternity session I did take on, it’s got easier. I no longer burst into tears after I get far enough away from my clients. I don’t have to fight back tears as I’m directing my pregnant clients. I don’t sit in my car and cry for a good 15 minutes after each maternity. I don’t go home and break down after a session anymore... it just got easier.
At first I thought it was some kind of cruel and unusual punishment but now that I think about it, I think it’s how God wanted me to heal from all the loss.
Anyway this is long and very personal. As you all know I’m very private but here you go if you read it all thank you and happy Friday.