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I’ve been pretty open about my #EggFreezing journey and one of the consequences, or shall I say, side effects, is the weight gain. I had my 2nd retrieval surgery less than a week ago, and all told, b/w the 1st (Sept/Oct) and 2nd (Nov/Dec) cycles, I gained 11 pounds. Any hormone therapy is bound to have some side effects and for this, it’s largely the emotional swings. The body is under a lot of stress and because the hippocampus in our brain is always in flight or fight mode, when it detects emotional sensors, it triggers a cascade of chemicals, including cortisol which constantly signals the body to replenish your food supply. In addition, you feel lethargic and self-conscious as the ovaries swell causing your stomach to bulge and nothing fits, so you just want to stay home. Then, you cannot workout at all, which is killer for someone who gets her high from running 🏃🏾♀️(I am used to working out everyday). I am barred from the gym for another 1-2 weeks to allow the body to recover. I’ve never weighed this much in my life, and honestly, it’s made me a bit self-conscious. I feel like I had a baby, without the baby (well, technically.. I laid some eggs, which is what every baby starts as, so did I have a baby(ies), after all? *mind blown* 🤯 lol 😅 j/k). My nurse says “it’s mostly water retention”, my friends say “oh you barely notice”, but the scale tells a different tale 😩. // So, I’m ending the year heavier than I started, but for good reason. The holiday party was my first time getting dressed up since it all ended. My face may be chunky, but one thing’s for sure - my smile is real ☺️. Even if I gained 40lbs, I honestly would do it again. Having the emotional security (even if it’s not 100%, it’s more than 0%), that no matter what happens in my love life, I will, by God’s Grace, fulfill my dream of having my own biological children one day, is priceless to me. It’s worth whatever I put my body through. I documented the whole experience and I look forward to showing it to my kids one day, whether I birth them naturally or via #IVF. I want them to know their Mama always wanted them and she did whatever it took for them way before they were even born 🙏🏾.