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Survived pre-term birth when I should have died; paying the cost of a life with dyslexia.
Today, as I sat reviewing what seems like a fairly 'basic' lecture to an average med student, I felt utter frustration as half the words on the slides did not make sense, their lack of coherence sentencing left me struggling for hours. Consequently, I questioned if it is all worth it? Are the hours I have to consequently invest, just to merely get by worth it? | Scroll down ⬇️ to continue reading in my comments or scroll to the right ➡️to see what I’ve written in photos☺️, ps surprisingly... I’ve been writing for 6 or so years and this is the first ever time I’m proplerly sharing one of my ‘blog’ posts with the world 😧 😧 😧...
Would I have been better off if I died like the doctors expected I would, as I born 3 months pre-term (premature). Is this the price I have to pay for my existence? Slower processing speeds, sacrifice in all aspects of my life, struggle, struggle just to get by? Is it all worth it? Or, was my purpose of survival to get through - get through and live a greater and higher purpose in my life through fulfilling my lifelong desire, passion and calling of becoming the best doctor I can ever be to my future patient's (In Shaa Allah-God willing)?
I am a graduate Medical student. 23 years into my existence, on a cold November's day at medical school, I learnt I had dyslexia. Or should I say, I was diagnosed. I still remember the diagnosis so vividly, and in all honestly I was not surprised - if anything, as stupid as it may sound I was actually grateful. Genuinely grateful.
Dyslexia explained why in both my first and second year of my undergraduate Biomedical Science degree I struggled like never before; I'll never forget my first lecture at The University of Birmingham. It was an basic introduction/A-Level recap of DNA and RNA etc; I was lost. I was so out of my depth, as I left the lecture theatre I was on the verge of tears as I messaged my friend "I think I should drop out, I don't think is for me."