6 hours ago
Every day is a fresh start ✨
In May, I spoke to my Dr about my anxiety. It’s been a tough battle for me for at least seven years and one I’m proud to say I’ve beaten for so long but then there are times where it’s triggered and I get stuck in such a rut I can’t get out of. Sometimes a really dark place where my thoughts consume me & I break.
From early May to now, my anxiety has been horrific. I’ve shut my friends out. I’ve been awful at meeting up or replying to messages. I’ve felt crap at my job. I’ve been a nightmare of a daughter. I’ve felt judged. I stopped my walking. I stopped focusing on Slimming World. I stopped bothering with my appearance. I would spend my weekends sleeping just so my mind switched off. Nothing motivated me anymore. Nothing gave me any oomph. Nothing was of interest.
Sometimes you need someone to shake you. Sometimes you need to shake yourself. Sometimes you just need a lightbulb moment for you to realise it’s okay to speak out and ask for help. I’m done pretending I’m alright. It’s okay not to be okay. It doesn’t mean you’re a failure, or a reason to be embarrassed. It doesn’t mean you’re weak or less of a person than anyone else.
I am very lucky I have some incredible friends who are the best support. I’ve beaten myself up a lot recently over losing friends I never thought I’d lose, and you know what, it’s okay, that’s life. Not everyone is here to stay. I’m forever thinking too far into the future. Overthinking things. Worrying about situations that haven’t happened yet. I need to just enjoy the here and now.
Tonight I decided I will start my medication which was given to me in May but due to “feeling a lot worse before feeling better” I’d put off starting them. I’ve now bitten the bullet. I wanted to crack this on my own. I didn’t want to rely on medication. Yet, two months later I’m in a crapper position and I’ve had enough. I’ve got this 💛 -
#slimmingworld #slimmingworlduk #slimmingworldjourney #slimmingworldinspo #slimmingworldinsta #slimmingworldfood #slimmingworldrecipe #slimmingworldarmy #slimmingworldmotivation #slimmingworldfriends #slimmingworldfamily #speed #healthyextras #synfree #syns #fooddiary #foodoptimising