4 days ago
These two pictures depict the first time in my life I truly believed in my ability to follow through with making choices to make my life better. It was the first time I saw the true potential within myself- the first time in my life at 28 years old.
I was 2 or 3 weeks into keto, had made it through my first Halloween with absolutely no candy. I was feeling fierce, on top of the world, and like I could conquer anything. I'd already been through a lot and made it out the other side - just not better or necessarily stronger. We often hear what doesn't kill us makes us stronger, but I'm not sure I believe that. Sometimes we get through but we're defeated, weak, and vulnerable.
This was the first time I wasn't defeated, I wasn't weak. I was vulnerable as hell, but you have to be to do the work.
I look back at this and get tears in my eyes knowing exactly how I felt in that moment- That I was finally winning my battle, not just being beaten down by it.