2 months ago
About two days ago I decided to delete all my social Media after hitting another fucking brick wall in my life, I can’t even tell you how many of these I have seen and moved through but this time was different. Instead of carrying on the way I usually would, I decided to be more introspective as to why these things happen? What am I doing wrong? Yes life is life and so on but there must be some way that I can change this cycle?
A very dear friend to me called me out on my bullshit with a few things and this is one of the things he pointed out to me : “Al, your social media is not you, it is so fake, it’s not the Al we all know, love and adore.” He was so right, I tried SO HARD on my previous social media accounts, for what? To be loved? Adored? Respected? Yet non of these things were happening so fuck it, let’s Get real!
This new account is my journey into healing, self exploration, my vulnerability, my truth and the process of how I am going to reach my goals and aspirations for ultimate self love & self respect.
The next couple of images you are going to see me post, let’s call it “Khaki Fever” were taken by a man that came into my life and swept me off my feet, I felt so relieved after meeting him that my long, painful journey into finding a soul mate was finally over, it was him! Unfortunately when you place all your faith into another persons hands to love you unconditionally and to fill voids that you should fill yourself, you end up attracting people just as empty as you are and the only way forward is a path of serious heartache and destruction, so yeah the universe saw that and she took him out of my life just as quickly as he came into it. It was an experience though and really one I will never forget, anyway back to the images, we were in a stunning field with grass taller than I am, just after sunset, and after a couple of hours day drinking I stripped down and posed for the camera, something I would NEVER usually do because my naked body is something I could never accept. This is the beginning of my healing though, to love and accept my body for she has carried me through it all, I am making a promise to love, accept and honour her just as..