21 minutes ago
Musik, Koffein und Taurin hält mich am Leben. Könnte am See sein, chillen, in YouTube weiterkommen, schon für die Uni zu Lernen beginnen, aber nein ich sitz hier im Zimmer bei 30 Grad und schau, dass ich meine Dateien vom Handy auf ne externe Festplatte bekomme. „A rebel I‘ll be one day..“ A$AP „Set a goal to become a millionaire, not for the money, but what it will make of you in the process of achieving“. „Open doors are not for those who need open doors, but for those who deserve them“ When do I fucking deserve these doors? I would need them right now. But okey Jim, I will do anything to deserve success. Couple lifeareas I already figured out, feels good to be comfortable in social interactions, get some nice eye contact from girls & know that you could easily talk to her. University will be okey, bad grades, but at least, I hope, will get my Bachelor degree in Winter. Fitness around 70kg. Feels better with 10kg more than Summer‘18. But still so skinny arms, legs and so on. But it‘s all a process. One step at a time. Have to get the biggest opponent out of my way... and guess who it is? Its meeeee. Just myself. I fuck it up. But I am the one who can change it all. Lets gooooo. And guess what I dont need clubs to „go dancing“ I dance all the time haha. Fired up babyyy. And if I am down, I force myself to get from a -10 to a -9, by pumping Zyzz Music, then get a Prework Out Booster -8, then stand up, posture -7, then force myself to smile -6, then move my arms -5, go around in the room -4, start moving legs to music -3, start jumping -2, start singing -1, and if I am at zero. Like feeling okey, I imagine myself with all emotions there are, having my dreamlife. And then I am buuuum at 💯. From -10 to +100 in energylevel by a few simple steps.