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A few nights ago, whilst sat crying I got a call from my boy.As soon as he heard me he could tell something was up, 15 mins later he pulled up outside. With this cheesy but so cute keepsake gift to make me laugh, chocolates, hugs, a Kebab.( Kebabs bring me comfort when I'm sad🤣🤣🤣) & treats for my children. He said..."Vanessa I couldn't end the day knowing you're sad. Now the nearest shop didn't have flowers but they had this...I felt the words fit how I feel...you know I love you...but its deeper...it is Forever Love...put it on your dresser and know no matter where I am...or where you are...your loved forever by me.Just as you are." May I add my Boy is a Cancerian just like me, so everything he does is heartfelt.😍💜💜 In all honesty this year I realised I have never been loved in this way before. It was harder than I thought, to have a man who wanted to be my friend and not expect or demand sex. To have a man who wanted to listen to me, who cared about what was happening in my life & mind, a man who valued my time & energy. To have a man who believed in me, who encouraged and supported me...with no ulterior motive. To have a man want to be around me everyday, just because was so so so weird to me. Like, I have given other men children and years of my life....and I still was never enough. Yet, all I do is talk and laugh alot...and i'm enough. I certainly have never had a man pray for me and with me either.🦋🦋🦋🦋 I have learnt that Love and Lust are often confused. Lust comes and goes, it is temporary. Love stays. Love doesn't want to change me, or put me down, or make me beg. Love doesn't leave me confused, full of anixety not knowing where I stand. Love doesn't just show up when it sees a pic it likes, or wants somethings from me. Love is never to busy to call. Love cares about how I am feeling. Love believes in me, my goals and my potential. Love hugs and gives reassurance and forehead kisses. Love will not lie. Love keeps it's word. Love is more than sex. My boy, is my soulmate and taught me about love, loyalty and friendship. And , yes you can deeply love and have a soulmate connection with someone and be friends.