1 hour ago
❌Trigger alert ❌
While I was “cleaning out my closet”, I found this 📝 .
Just a 📝 with a desperate appeal, a begging, from me to him.
I’m begging him of letting me be.
Just one night.
Just one nights sleep was all I was asking for.
I was so ill, so sick, so tired, so afraid, so desperate.
I was drained to the core.
It wasn’t mentally I was afraid of dying, it was physically.
I was never afraid of me getting killed, no, I actually, in secret, dreamed of dying.
Because if I died I would getting out, get free from the living hell I was stuck stuck in.
But I could not letting myself get killed, because then who could take care of my youngest son if I died..?
And I was secretly dreaming about a reunion with my 2 oldest sons, that he drove away from me.
And that kept me fighting to stay alive.
I never wanted to commit suicide, He wanted me to kill my self.
He actually dragged me to climb a chair, to a rope, to hang me once.
He did other things like that.
Tried to fill me with drugs and pills. Kept me from sleeping.
Every freaking day and night.
He isolated me from my family and friends.
Away from any sort of social life.
Every visit at a doctor or anyone outside, he followed me there, acting like the perfect gentleman, taking care of his gf, like support her at the doctors.
He ruined me for the rest of my life.
He abused my body so much that I will never heal, no matter what the doctors do.
If I wrote down everything, I would be a successful writer to many books by now.
Let’s talk about what this predators do to us.
Don’t stay silent, tell and share your story to your sisters and brothers.
Narcissist isn’t just one gender, they are everywhere and appears in any sort of body.
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