4 days ago
This picture was taken within an hour of me having a tonic clonic seizure 3 years ago after being 20 years fit free. I am sat in the hospital messaging my husband telling him I have passed out at work and hit my head on the sink in the toilet. The truth is I was in denial in this photo. I believe that I had just fainted. It was the hottest day of the year and I was under a lot of pressure, with writing up my PhD thesis and running my own business. The wagon had arrived at work to pick up the latest load for bottling and I was alone sorting it all due to covering holidays. An aura had started, so i did my normal thing of going to the toilet to be alone (silly thing to do I know) Luckly I had gone into the toilet in the shop next door at Growell and it was the boys who found me on the floor of the toilet covered in blood, dazed and confused. Who I am eternally grateful for.
Now that is a good sized tennis ball lump on my head, which could have been prevented had I not been in denial and had spoken to people about my condition. I took another 2 years for me to fully come out denial, but now I am here, I see that it is my mission to help other to not be afraid to talk about being epileptic and know what your triggers are.
Thanks to people like Chelsea layland and caz sharp that I faced my demons and came out of denial. The wonderful work they are doing as part of separating the strains has also helped me talk about cannabis as a treatment , which I have always know about, but never dared to say due to the law. Times are changing and we all are too. Prof. David Nutt said at the conference this weekend, that the best thing we can do is raise awareness and talk about it, cannabis is not a silver bullet, but it stop me ending up looking like this photo!
This is not a photo many have seen, but I wanted to share it to raise awareness of what can happen if people have fits in the wrong place. As the second image says, I am not looking to be the victim, I just want to help others to feel brave enough to face their denial.
We are not monsters we are WARRIORs
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