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I FEEL LIKE IM DROWNING // this may sound dramatic but if this sounds familiar to you, read on.
I do, sometimes I feel like I’m drowning and I’m just treading water to stay afloat. I can’t keep up with my 3 jobs that I’m so grateful for but take so much out of me. I can’t keep up with doing the laundry and dishes, and vacuuming all the cat hair around my apartment, and remembering to brush the cat, and give him his medicine, water the plants, make dinner and clean it up, trying to eat a clean diet but not restrict myself, making time to work out, remembering to wash my face before bed let alone exfoliate, and do my face/hair masks, going to the grocery, calling my parents, calling my best friends and sister so they don’t think it’s that I don’t care, take photos because I need a creative outlet then go through them and edit them, spend quality time with my boyfriend and also making sure I do girls nights, remembering to check on my various subscriptions, read my book for book club, take my vitamins and allergy pill. It’s A LOT and I don’t even have kids yet. 🙈 I’m not complaining and I’m aware some of these things sound silly but the point is, a million little things add up.Some of the stress is temporary and some of it’s just called life. The problem is that I don’t have the time to invest in the things that I actually want to. It’s frustrating and I had a full blown meltdown Friday night.
Is this embarrassing to admit? Yup, I’m cringing as I write this. I like to think I can do everything myself and then get frustrated when I don’t get it all done. For emotional I am, I don’t like to talk about my feelings or emotions. I shut down. It’s hard for me to come out of my shell but I think there may be a lot of you out there who feel the same way. I don’t say any of this to be whiny, I say it because I think women specifically tend to put a lot of pressure on themselves to be everything to everyone all the time, and it’s not healthy. If you have ever felt like you are drowning too, just know you’re not alone and it’s okay. As my sister would say to me when I’m upset “just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.” 🐠