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Finally 21, and i must say, i am quite proud of myself for how far i've come. Im proud of my inner transition. Needless say there are higher mountains to climb, but now i know, the road i'm walking is the right one.
However there's a few things i wanna share with you guys if you could please take the time to have a read.
Honestly, it took me time to accept the tragedy life is but I’m so thankful that I did and for me that’s a level up; age wise, soul wise, mind wise.
The scars I carry used to be too heavy a burden for my young soul. But then, realising that no-one is responsible for why they’re here in the first place but myself; owning up to the fact that I’m the sole culprit for why the pain birthed, has been a real struggle. I’ve been through stuff I don’t even deserve. I’ve helplessly watched what I deserved burn to ashes in front my desperate eyes before I could even relish it. I’ve watched evil dance in triumph in possession of what they don’t even deserve.
But then, nobody owes me anything. If they’re ravaging my soul, it’s because I’m letting them. If they’re holding my head underwater while my lungs are begging for air, it’s because I chose to let them. I can’t blame their demons for why my angels are suffering.
Dear insta friends,
Just because you do right by them doesn’t oblige them to reciprocate. They don’t need to kill those demons for you. You just gotta shield the toxicity from your sanity. You need to find a way to cut the chords and set free. Untie the rock that’s drowning you, from around your legs, and swim to the surface with all your might cause no one is gonna do it for you. I mean yes, you are damn lucky if there is. Who doesn’t need someone dependable. Someone who forms part of the pillars holding the bricks of your kingdom steady. But if there isn’t, you just gotta suck it up cause life does not owe you this. It is tragic but that’s life and often times, it’s not fair.
That pain, it’s never gonna end. One thing for sure, it’s only gonna surge. Either you learn to become numb to it or just use it as an inspiration source.
“...and nevertheless, she thrived”