1 day ago
I’ve thought about writing this for a year. How do you write about one of your scariest moments in your life in an Instagram post?
Well, the reality is you can’t, so I’m not going to try. But, what I am going to do is let you in on some of it.
A year ago I starred at a white man with a gun and begged for him not to kill me. I begged for him not to make me another line in a rap song. I begged for him not to have me be the name for another protest. Another forgotten girl, another lifeless body, another human being stolen to police brutality.
Police brutality is the stripping of humanness.
The night my humanness was terrorized, “K” showed up and fought against white supremacy. She wasn’t the only one, but she was the first. She has my full respect.
There are a few people I owe my life to. One one of them is K.
K is courageous, intuitive, kind, and faithful. I know this by her willingness to, speak out, show up, and check in.
Yet, when someone has you in handcuffs and still has their gun out. And your mere life hangs in the balance of white people vouching for your existence it can break you.
It attacks your soul and it steals your worth. Police brutality it is not just officers killing, attacking, and terrorizing black people. It’s more than that.
It’s the after effects, it’s the terror when you drive. Its the ptsd. It’s feeling like you aren’t being heard or respected. It is injustice. It is being treated like trash and having less rights than a dog. It’s being angry and sad that my worth in the eyes of a police brutality... is only worth something if it is attached to a white person.
And that is not true.
I am human.
I don’t need to be attached to anyone to prove that. My humanness does not come from whiteness.
My humanness comes from the black dust in Africa. Where God breathed life into me. Where the sun kissed me and the rain grew me.
Though police brutality tried to take away my humanness. Police brutality did not kill me last year. But it did kill 57,375 years of people’s life.
We need to speak out about this.
Our humanity depends on it.
Black lives depend on it.