2 weeks ago
👆🏾👀👆🏾😭 Those who know - know that it’s been particularly difficult for me to focus on my music over the past several years. In the words of the wise @kamilahf - more than tweets, I am busy with the honorable work of moving art institutions forward...and when busy,
Sometimes it’s easy to forget your true talent, your original purpose among the accolades of the “other” that has taken one down a mighty long road of triumphs, and headaches and, well... #oprah (!). This being said, when I attended the taping of #BlackGirlsRock @njpac , I my “other” had opened that door. My work to move (push) #njpac ’s social media presence into a dynamic, thriving space now allows me to return just for fun (coming at u hot for tomorrow’s #njpacgala my friends). That night, among laughs and giggles, I pushed past lamenting that my original talent hadn’t brought me into the room - it’s quite agonizing to know you have talent big enough to shake the entire world, and it hasn’t come to fruition - yet (PLUS having gone through a serious bought of “no one will miss me if I don’t show up to this” + “I don’t know what to wear”) ⏭ I settled into breathing in inspiration from #AngelaBassett , @ciara and @djbeverlybond - and posting my presence on IG. 👉🏾👉🏾👉🏾Little did I know that a 16 year old violinist from Cleveland, OH, was sitting in a balcony above me. As she scrolled through her IG, it wasn’t the presence of the glitzy, glamorous celebrities seated in the space beneath her that made @blackgirlsrock a moment for her —— it was ME (😵). Me?? Yes. Gurl. You. I was her inspiration?!? Me thinking I had done zero zilch with my god-given talent. Me thinking I was just another glitzy spot among glitzy spots in a magical room. 💦
Lots of lessons here. First. YOU MATTER. Especially on the days and in the moments when you think that you don’t. Second. KEEP PUSHING. I woke up one day and called myself a gospel/jazz violinist and now so does another (yup. Still crying). Third. NEVER forget who you are.
I’m not really sure who inspired who first, but MISS @kynnedysimoneviolin - I thank you for inspiring me. 💞