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This road isn't easy. I have breakdowns once in a while over all the support & love I pushed away. A marriage, being partially responsible for my baby's painful death, because of the constant struggle of money. No family to lean on during hard times, both financially & emotionally. Frustrated & not seeing fast enough progress, feeling like I'm getting no where. Buuuuut, the release of those tears & enormous heartache is always worth it. I always come out feeling more empowered. I don't settle for mediocrity & not all can support that.
We're all human, having motivation & spreading empowerment isn't a straight line. You're going to have moments of doubt, self loathing, shame, frustration & even a bit of temporary bitterness. Forget what some platforms mask, you're going to feel all of that & should allow yourself to! The key is & the true positivity is, not to stay too long in those places. Allow the feelings, welcome them, thank them, cry them out, write & shake it out. Honor the loss & let it go. Your journey isn't like others & that's ok. Your tribe will come. Always find understanding & come back to the light. You'll wakeup more empowered then before, when you allow yourself this natural process. Don't suppress it, it only slows you down & bites you harder. You don't need to risk your sanity, to "hustle" hard as they say. The body will only reject it & you'll burn out. It may even make you give up. If a part time job is what you need to make your goals happen, over a full time hustle role, then do it. To have space for adequate self care, your own business goals & just breathabilty is so valuable. Make it work! So much more actually happens. It's what I'm learning in my multi passionate journey & it's what I teach.
Yes I'm an adrenalin lover, extremely ambitious & intellectually articulate, buuuut I know my body & my spirit. I don't want to abuse it in the process. My heart wants all of these things, but wants me to do them at the right pace & in the right way. Knowing your limits is a powerful thing, it doesn't mean reducing progress. It's setting yourself up for actual productivity & more love. I believe in me & I believe in you. - Sapphire Hope.