7 hours ago
It's been two months since we went for a hike at Mt. Batulao yet the lessons I've learned there still resonates within me, and I would carry it for a long time.
You see, throughout the course of our hike, I was only looking down, carefully calculating my steps, always looking for a safe place to step on, worrying about the mistakes I could make, and how dangerous the journey to the summit would be. I was constantly thinking, "What if something goes wrong?" "What if I can't do it?", "It's too high. What if I suddenly slip, and die?" So much thoughts replaying over and over again on my mind. I'm quite the paranoid, you see. I tend to overthink, and look at worst cases possible. And hell did that do so much anxiety on me. But as we were about to reach the summit, I realized something. I forgot to gaze up. I forgot to look around, and see that there lay a beautiful scenery right in front of me. I forgot to appreciate it and just enjoy the journey. I had been focusing only on the negatives, and I had only been inside my mind the whole damn time. Yes, I was there, physically my body was but I wasn't really present. My mind was elsewhere. I wasn't in touch with the moment.
Sometimes the ones you really fear doing is what makes you feel more alive, and happy. Most of the time, what's really hindering us from doing, or achieving something is nothing but our selves. There's this divide, like the two sides of a coin that's inside of us that creates this constant push and pull we feel when we are faced to choose or do something. It's between uncertainties, and trust; between our fears, and guts. It's between taking risks, and letting chances slide. It's that recurring voice inside of us telling we can't do it, when in truth, we can. If I had let my fears get the better of me, I wouldn't be able to experience such freeing, and liberating experience.
Just discovered there's also a limit for the caption here. Ehe. Got carried away with what I have written. Ugh. It's a bit long so the next part will be on my next post. 😅😣