4 hours ago
Well hey grandpa,
Today it's been a year since you passed away and i've been running around with these thoughts for the past week. It feels like writing about it is the only way i'll feel some satisfaction about getting my emotions out there.
It began to get tough Saturday, because last year i was going around visiting colleges when we suddenly got a call saying you got worse so we rushed to your place. That day was the last day you spoke to me. Made me promise to do well in school and told me how much you loved me. How proud you were and how happy you were that you managed to see me turn 18. The only grandchild that still needed to turn 18. In your eyes, that was the only goal you still needed to achieve, make it till the 19th of February. And you did. Exactly a month longer even. Sunday we were all sitting at your bed, watching the nurses try to make the suffering better. And on Monday the 19th of March, i was at school. Though at noon i felt like i couldn't be there anymore so i just took the bus to your place. All your children and two grandchildren, aswell as your two favourite nurses stayed with you till 4 P.M. and that's when you passed away after a long battle. Your death was not a very nice one. You didn't want to leave us yet, you were so scared and kept reaching up.. it was a horrible sight.
And despite how much i miss you right now, death was the most merciful and humanly thing that could happen to you. You couldn't eat or drink, or speak. Or walk the last couple of days.
This year has not been easy without you, honestly i even think it has been the worst one yet. I miss you so much, and how we teased grandma together, or secretly fed the dog even though she was already a bit of a fatty. Or how you used to wink at me and how we used to sing songs together. "Wij zijn twee vrienden, jij en ik. Wij blijven altijd bij elkaar, al worden we meer dan 100 jaar. Wij zijn twee vrienden, tot de laatste snik." That was our song. Ever since i was a child and we'd take care of the pigeons together.
You were a champion and i'm so proud to be your grandchild. You were such a strong, loyal man who i'll always look up to. I hope you're resting in peace. I love you.