4 days ago
i get asked how do i not use notes when i speak. truth is bc i get so confused when i try; it throws me completely off. Reading has always been a struggle. 4th grade my teachers noticed & tested for ADD. I got headaches when I read so in 7th grade got my eyes tested, but had 20/20. no answers, but still a struggle. I avoided reading at all cost. I found my own system of studying bc I couldn’t comprehend fast enough in school or write down the notes from the board accurately. So online lessons, audio books, & making up songs for memorization. Multiple choice & T/F test were WHACK. Not bc i didn’t know the answer it’s that i would circle the right letter but write down the wrong one or read the opposite of what the question is asking. If anyone called on me to read i would panic. So how did i become a writer & speaker? only God. Ppl who know me know that I don’t read out loud hardly EVER. You may be thinking you read the Bible when you speak? let me tell you, I STUDY a lot, memorize everything before I ever “read” anything publicly, & PRAY. How do i write my books? I talk into a voice memo, type the words on my phone (auto check), then send it to a co-writer. Writing my messages? I STUDY, listen to the Bible out loud, read it with a pen & highlighter, & then I talk out my points into a voice recorder & PRAY. Writing blogs & IG post? I write it then send it to my mom & she fixes everything. When i speak i depend on Holy Spirit. My fam recently noticed how much I truly do struggle with this. Mom realized I may be dyslexic. I thought this was crazy -how could i be 21 & not know I’m dyslexic? so i took a test... 100%. Um no way ... so I took another test... 100%. 🙃 I took one more test 100%. The only time I’ve gotten 100 on a test & it was a test for dyslexia😂 this made everything make sense in my life, but doesn’t change anything. God’s been my teacher & my strength in the areas of life I would of run. I’ve learned wisdom from Him & found my study methods & rhythms from Him. Sure, there are challenges & it can be hard, but there’s nothing I can’t do in Him. There is nothing that you lack, but some things in life you will have to work at & search for & find in Him.